a nap.

up mine eyes; let us lie down here, and take one nap.

By no means, said the other, lest sleeping we never awake more.

Hope. Why, my brother? sleep is sweet to the labouring man; we may be refreshed if we take

Chr. Do you not remember that one of the shepherds bid us beware of the ENCHANTED GROUND? He meant by that, that we should beware of sleeping; “ wherefore let us not sleep, as do others, but let us or watch and be sober.”

Hope. I acknowledge myself in a fault; and, had I been here alone, I had by sleeping run the danger of death. I see it is true that the wise man saith,

“ Two « are better than one”.” Hitherto hath thy company been my mercy; and thou shalt “ have a good reward “ for thy Jabour.”

Now then, said CHRISTIAN, to prevent drowsiness in this place, let us fall into good discourse.

With all my heart, said the other.
Chr. Where shall we begin?

Hope. Where God began with us:—but do you begin, if you please.

Chr. I will sing you first this song

• When saints do sleepy grow, let them come hither,
And hear how these two pilgrims talk together:
Yea, let them learn of them in any wise
Thus to keep ope their drowsy slumb'ring eyes.
Saints' fellowship, if it be manag'd well,
Keeps them awake, and that, in spite of hell.'

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Then Christian began, and said, I will ask you a question: how came you

how came you to think at first of doing what


do now? Hope. Do you mean, how came I at first to look after the good of my soul ? Chr. Yes, that is

my meaning Hope. I continued a great while in the delight of those things which were seen and sold at our fair ; things which I believe now would have, had I continued in them still, drowned me in perdition and destruction.

Chr. What things are they?

HOPE. All the treasures and riches of the world. Also I delighted much in rioting, revelling, drinking, swearing, lying, uncleanness, sabbath-breaking, and what not that tended to destroy the soul ? But I found, at last, by hearing and considering of things that are divine, which indeed I heard of you, as also of the beloved FAITHFUL, that was put to death for his faith and good living in VANITY-FAIR, that “ the end of these things is death ;” And that “ for " these things' sake, the wrath of God cometh upon " the children of disobedience!."

Chr. And did you presently fall under the power of this conviction?

Hope. No, I was not willing presently to know the evil of sin, nor the damnation that follows upon the commission of it; but endeavoured, when my mind at first began to be shaken with the word, to shut mine eyes against the light thereof.

i Rom. vi. 21--23. Eph. v. 6.



Chr. But what was the cause of your carrying of it thus to the first workings of God's blessed Spirit upon you?

Hope. The causes were-1. I was ignorant that this was the work of God upon me. I never thought that by awakenings for sin God at first begins the conversion of a sinner. 2. Sin was yet very sweet to my flesh, and I was loth to leave it. 3. I could not tell how to part with my old companions, their presence and actions were so desirable unto me. 4. The hours in which convictions were upon me were such troublesome and such heart-affrighting hours, that I could not bear, no not so much as, the remembrance of them upon my heart.

Chr. Then, it seems, sometimes you got relief of

your trouble?

Hope. Yes, verily, but it would come into my mind again, and then I would be as bad, nay worse than I was before.

Chr. Why, what was it that brought your sins to mind again?

Hope. Many things: as, if I did but meet a good man in the street; or if I have heard any read in the Bible; or if mine head did begin to ach; or if I were told that some of my neighbours were sick; or if I heard the bell toll for some that were dead; or if I thought of dying myself; or if I heard that sudden death happened to others :—but especially when I thought of myself, that I must quickly come to judgement.

And could you at any time, with ease, get



it came

off the guilt of sin, when by any of these ways upon you?

Hope. No, not I; for then they got faster hold of my conscience; and then, if I did but think of going back to sin, (though my mind was turned against it) it would be double torment to me.

Chr. And how did you do then?

Hope. I thought I must endeavour to mend my · life ; for else, thought I, I am sure to be damned.

Chr. And did you endeavour to amend ?

HOPE. Yes; and fled from not only my sins, but sinful company too, and betook me to religious duties, as praying, reading, weeping for sin, speaking truth to my neighbours, &c. These things did I, with many other, too much here to relate.

Chr. And did you think yourself well then?

Hope. Yes, for a while; but at the last my trouble came tumbling upon me again, and that over the neck of all my reformation.

Chr. How came that about, since you were now reformed ?

Hope. There were several things brought it upon me; especially such sayings as these- All our righ“ teousnesses are as filthy rags :"-" By the works of “ the law no man shall be justified;”—“When ye “ have done all these things, say, We are unprofita“ ble":” with many more such like. Froin whence I began to reason with myself thus :-if all my righteousnesses are filthy rags; if by the deeds of the law no man can be justified; and if, when we have done all,

Isa, lxiv. 6. Luke xvii. 10.

Gal. ii. 16.



we are unprofitable—then it is but a folly to think of heaven by the law. I further thought thus—if a man runs a hundred pounds into the shopkeeper's debt, and after that shall pay for all that he shall fetchyet, if this old debt stands still in the book uncrossed, for that the shopkeeper may sue him, and cast him into prison till he shall pay the debt.

Chr. Well, and how did you apply this to yourself?

Hope. Why, I thought with myself, I have by my sins run a great way into God's book, and that my now reforming will not pay off that score; therefore I should think still, under all my present amendments, But how shall I be freed from that

damnation that I brought myself in danger of by my former transgressions?' Chr. A very good application :--but pray go on.

Hope. Another thing that hath troubled me, even since my late amendments, is, that, if I look narrowly into the best of what I do now, I still see sin, new sin, mixing itself with the best of that I do: so that now I am forced to conclude that, notwithstanding my former fond conceits of myself and duties, I have committed sin enough in one duty to send me to hell, though my former life had been faultless. Chr. And what did


do then? Hope. Do! I could not tell what to do, till I broke my mind to FAITHFUL; for he and I were well acquainted. And he told me that unless I could obtain the righteousness of a man that never had sinned, neither my own, nor all the righteousness of the world, could save me,

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