have the sudden thought !-Should have the courage ' with the thonght, to address a lady in behalf of an abso.

lute stranger to that lady! That the lady should so

readily consent! Yet the transaction between them to • take up so much time, their distance in degree consi. (dered : for, arduous as the case was, and precious as • the time, Dorcas was gone above half an hour! Yet • the chariot was said to be ready at a grocer's not many 6 doors off!

• Indeed some elderly ladies are talkative: and there are, no doubt, some good people in the world.

• But that it should chance to be a widow lady, who ' could do what she pleased! That Dorcas should know • her to be so by the lozenge! Persons in her station are 'not usually so knowing, I believe, in heraldry.

" Yet some may ! for servants are fond of deriving col. lateral honours and distinctions, as I may call them, ' from the quality, or people of rank, whom they serve. < But this sly servant not gone with him! Then this " letter of Tomlinson !

Although I am resolved never to have this wretch, yet, may I not throw myself into my uncle's protec.

tion at, or Highgate, if I cannot pescae ' before : and so get clear of him? May not the evil

I know be less than what I may fall into, if I can

avoid farther villany? Farther villany he has not yet • threatened; freely and justly as I have treated bim !

I will not go, I think. At least, unless I can send this fellow away*.

* She tried to do this; but was prevented by the fellow's pretending to pot his ankle ont, hy a slip down stairs-A trick, says his contriving master, in his omitted relation, I had taught him, on a like occusion, at Amiens.

i The fellow a villain ! The wench, I doubt, a vile 6 Wench. At last concerned for her own safety. Plays ( off and on about a coach.

All my hopes of getting off at present over!-Una happy creature! to what farther evils art thou reserved! • Oh! how my heart rises at the necessity I must still be " under to see and converse with so very vile a man!'



Wednesday Afternoon. DISAPPOINTED in her meditated escape; obliged, against her will, to meet me in the dining-room; and perhaps apprehensive of being upbraided for her art in feigning herself ill; I expected that the dear perverse would begin with me with spirit and indignation. But I was in hopes, from the gentleness of her natural disposition ; from the consi. deration which I expected from her on her situation; from the contents of the letter of Captain Tomlinson, which Dorcas told me she had seen; and from the time she had had to cool and reflect since she last admitted me to her presence, that she would not have carried it so strongly through as she did.

As I entered the dining-room, I congratulated her and myself upon her sudden


And would have taken her hand, with an air of respectful tenderness; but she was resolved to begin where she left off.

She turned from me, drawing in her hand, with a re. pulsing and indignant aspect-I meet you once more, said she, because I caunot help it. What have you to say to me? Why am I to be thus detained against my will?

With the utmost solemnity of speech and behaviour, I urged the ceremony. I saw I had nothing else for it. I had a letter in my pocket I said, [feeling for it, although I had not taken it from the table where I left it in the same room,] the contents of which, if attended to, would make us both happy. I had been loth to show it to her before, because I hoped to prevail upon her to be mine sooner than the day mentioned in it.

I felt for it in all my pockets, watching her eye mean time, which I saw glance towards the table where it lay.

I was uneasy that I could not find it—at last, directed again by her sly eye, I spied it on the table at the farther end of the room.

With joy I fetched it. Be pleased to read that letter, Madam ; with an air of satisfied assurance.

She took it, and cast her eye over it, in such a careless way, as made it evident, that she had read it before: and then unthankfully tossed it into the before her.

I urged her to bless me to-morrow, or Friday morning : at least, that she would not render vain her uncle's journey, and kind endeavours to bring about a reconciliation among us all.

Among us all! repeated she, with an air equally disdainful and incredulous. O Lovelace, thou art surely nearly allied to the grand deceiver, in thy endeavour to suit temptations to inclinations ?-But what honour, what faith, what veracity, were it possible that I could enter into parley with thee on this subject, (which it is not,) may I expect from such a man as thou hast shown thyself I was touched to the quick. A lady of your perfect character, Madam, who has feigned herself sick, on pur. pose to avoid seeing the man who adored her, should not

to be

I know what thou wouldst say, interrupted she-Twenty and twenty low things, that my soul would have been above being guilty of, and which I have despised myself for, have I been brought into by the infection of thy company, and by the necessity thou hadst laid me under, of appearing mean. But, I thank God, destitute as I am, that I am not, however, sunk so low, as to wish to be thine.

I, Madam, as the injurer, ought to have patience. It is for the injured to reproach. But your uncle is not in a plot against you, it is to be hoped. There are circum. stances in the letter you have cast your eyes over-

Again she interrupted me, Why, once more I ask you, am I detained in this house?-Do not I see myself sur. rounded by wretches, who, though they wear the habit of my sex, may yet, as far as I know, lie in wait for my perdition ?

She would be very loth, I said, that Mrs. Sinclair and her nieces should be called up to vindicate themselves and their house.

Would but they kill me, let them come, and welcome. I will bless the hand that will strike the blow! Indeed I will.

'Tis idle, very idle, to talk of dying. Mere young-lady talk, when controuled by those they hate. But let me be. seech you, dearest creature--

Beseech me nothing. Let me not be detained thus against my will!-Unhappy creature that I am, said she, in a kind of phrensy, wringing ber hands at the same time, and turning from me, her eyes lifted up! Thy curse, "O my cruel father, seems to be now in the height of its 6 operation! -My weakened mind is full of forebodings, 6 that I am in the way of being a lost creature as to both

worlds! Blessed, blessed God, said she, falling on her " knees, save me, O save me, from myself and from this



I sunk down on my knees by her, excessively affected O that I could recall yesterday !-Forgive me, my dearest creature, forgive what is past, as it cannot now, but hy one way, be retrieved. Forgive me only on this condition—That


future faith and honour She interrupted me, rising-If you mean to beg of me never to seek to avenge myself by law, or by an appeal to my relations, to my cousiu Morden in particular, when he comes to England

D-n the law, rising also, (she started, ] and all those to whom you talk of appealing !--I defy both the one and the other-All I beg is your forgiveness; and that you will, on my unfeigned contrition, re-establish me in your favour

O no, no, no! lifting up her clasped hands, I never never will, never, never can forgive you !-and it is a pu. nishment worse than death to me, that I am-obliged to meet you, or to see you.

This is the last time, my dearest life, that you will ever see me in this posture, on this occasion : and again I kneeled to her. Let me hope, that you will be mine next Thursday, your uncle's birth-day, if not before. Would to Heaven I had never been a villain! Your indignation is not, cannot be greater, than my remorse-and I took hold of her gown for she was going from me.

Be remorse thy portion !-For thine own sake, be re. morse thy portion !-I never, never will forgive thee !-I

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