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the wind; who overtook me just about the place where the settle stands.

Chr. Just there did I set myself down to rest; and, being overcome with neep, I there lost this roll out of

my

bosom. Faith. But, good brother, hear me out. As foon as the man overtook me, it was but a word and a blow, down he knocked me, and laid me for dead'. When I was a little come to myself, I asked him, Wherefore he served me fo? He said, Because of my secret inclining to Adam the First: and with that he struck me another deadly blow on the breast, which did beat me down backward; so that I lay at his feet as dead. When I came to myself again, I cried for mercy: but he said, that he knew not how to shew mercy; and with that knocked me down again. He had doubtless made an end of me, but that one came by, and bid him forbear.

Chr. Who was that that bid him forbear?

Faith. I did not know him at first; but as he went by I perceived the holes in his hands and in his side: then I concluded he was our Lord. So I

the hill. Chr. That man who overtook you was Moses.

went up

* The law is good, if a man use it lawfully ; i. e. if he put it to a right use. The right use of the law is this ; to give us the knowledge of fin, so that, having the sentence of death in ourselves, we may not trust to ourselves, but, falling under the sentence of the law, may cast ourselves entirely upon the arms of mercy.

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He spareth none, neither knoweth he how to thew mercy to those who transgress his law.

Faith. I know it very well; it was not the first time that he had met with me. 'Twas he who came to me when I dwelt securely at home, and who told me he would burn my house over my head, if I ftaid there.

Chr. But did you not see the house that stood on the top

of the hill, on the side of which Moses met

you ?

me, did

Faith. Yes, and the lions too, before I came to it; but the lions, I think, were asleep, for it was about noon: and because I had so much of the day before me, I passed by the porter and came down the hill.

Chr. He told me indeed that he saw you go by ; but I wish you had called at the house: they would have shewed you so many rarities, that you would scarce have forgot them to the day of your

death. But pray tell

you meet nobody in the valley of Humility ?

Faith. Yes, I met with one Discontent, who would willingly have persuaded me to have gone back again with him. His reason was, because the valley was altogether without honour. He told me moreover, that to go there was to disoblige all my friends, as Pride, Arrogance, Self-Conceit, Worldly-Glory, with others whom he knew, and who, as he said, would be very much offended, if I made such a fool of myself as to wade through this valley.

Chr.

Chr. Well, and how did you answer him?

Faith. I told him, that although all these whom he named might claim kindred to me, and that rightly (for, indeed, they were my relations according to the flesh), yet since I had become a pilgrim they had disowned me, and I also had rejected them; therefore they were to me now no more than if they had never been of my lineage. I told him moreover, that as to this valley he had quite misreprefented it; for “ Before honour is humility, and a

haughty spirit before a fall.” Therefore, said I, I had rather go through this valley to that honour which is so accounted of by the wiseft, than choose that which by him was esteemed most worthy our affections.

Chr. Met you with nothing else in that valley?

Faith. Yes, I met with Shames: but of all the men that I met with in my pilgrimage, I think he bears a wrong name ; for the others, after a little argumentation, and somewhat else, would be said nay; but this bold-faced Shame would never have done.

Chr. Why, what did he say to you?

Faith. What! why he objected against religion itself; he said, 'twas a pitiful, low, sneaking business for a man to mind religion; he said, that a ten

• The conflict, in which Christian was engaged in the Valley of Humiliation, was with a messenger of Satan; but Faithful was opposed by Discontent and Shame, the workings of his fallen and corrupt nature.

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der conscience was an unmanly thing; and that, for a man to watch over his words and ways, was to tie up himself from that hectoring liberty to which the brave spirits of the times accustom themselves; and that it would make a man the ridicule of the times. He objected also, that few of the mighty, rich, or wise, were of my opinion; and of those few not one of them were of my opinion, before they were persuaded to be fools, and by a voluntary fondness to venture the loss of all, for nobody else knows what. He moreover objected the base and low estate and condition of those who were chiefly the pilgrims of the times in which they lived; also their ignorance, and want of understanding in all natural science. Yea, he did hold me to it at this rate about a great many more things than I here relate ; as, that it was a shame to fit whining and mourning under a fermon; a shame to come home sighing and groaning; a shame to ask my neighbour forgiveness for petty faults, or make restitution where I have taken any thing from any. He said also, that religion made a , man grow strange to the great, because of their vices (which he called by finer names), and made him own and respect the base, because of the same religious fraternity: and is not all this, said he, a shame?

Chr. And what did you say to him?

Faith. Say! I could not tell what to say at first. Yea, he put me to it so, that my blood came up in

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iny face; even this Shame fetched it up, and had almost beat me quite off from being a pilgrim. But, at last, I began to consider, that what is highly esteemed among men, is an abomination with God. Again I thought, though this Shame tells me what men are, yet he tells me nothing what God or the Word of God is. I thought moreover, that at the day of our final doom we shall not be doomed to death or life according to the hectoring spirit of the world, but according to the wisdom and law of the Highest. Therefore, thought I, what God has said must be best, though all the men in the world should speak against me. Seeing then that God prefers his own religion ; seeing that God prefers a tender conscience; seeing that those who make themselves fools for the kingdom of heaven are wiseft; seeing that the poor man who loveth Christ is richer than the greatest man in the world who hates him; therefore depart, Shame, thou art an enemy to my salvation: shall I entertain thee against my sovereign Lord? If I do, how shall I look him in the face at his coming? Should I now be ashamed of his ways and servants, how can I expect the blessing? But oh this Shame was a bold villain: I could scarce shake him out of my company; yea, he would be haunting me, and continually whispering in my ear fome one or other of the infirmities which attend religion. But at last I told him, it was but in vain to attempt further in this business ; for in those things that he dis

dained,

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