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many, yet the Lord was not will. me? feed my sheep.' . I do not,' ing that any should perish, but that she observed, in ihe least distrust all should come to repentance.' • He the mercy, the boundless mercy and came not to call the righteous, but compassion of God, but the deceilsinners to repentance. She saw fulness of my own heart, which with what compassion Jesus treated makes me think I am penitent, sinners, while he was upon earth. when perhaps it is only the fear of • Daughter, be of good comfort: hell which affects me; and should thy sins are forgiven thee,' · But,' I recover again, I should again slumsaid she, I have mispent all my ber and sleep.' You have indeed. life; and now no more time remains reason to distrust yourself, it wasfor me. It was told her, that neither said to her; and we are bid to the greatness nor the multitude of work out our salvation with fear and sins would exclude from God's mercy trembling; but be that will judge. those who should seek him and turn you is the Lord who died for you. to him with all their hearts; and Therefore you are to resign yourself that although her time was now wholly to your merciful God and short, yet she ought to consider that Saviour, and to labour, by his grace, not only they, who were called at to have the present temper of your the third, sixth, and ninth hours heart all contrition, all love, all ador. received their penny, but he also ration. God of his mercy has given who was called at the eleventh. you this disposition at present, and She said, that God had some years he will not break the bruised reed, ago mercifully called ber, and had nor quench the smoking flax, until she answered that call, she might he bring forth juilgment unto victory. have been a grown Christiąn before. He now has given you a heart to adore now, but she had slumbered and and love hiin, and to abhor and hate slept,' It was told her, that she had yourself for having been so undutiful. great reason to deplore this; but to him. It is God who worketh this such was the infinite goodness and holy disposition in your heart, and mercy of God that he continued yet will perfeck it unto the end : and, as, to call her: • Behold, I stand at the to your fear, in case your health be door and knock; if any man will hear restored, of returning to a, state of my voice, and open the door, I will slumber, the Lord will either strengthcome in unto him. O my God,' en you to resist templations, if he see. she said, ! I would open my heart it for bis glory to continue you longer, wholly to thee : come and take posu, in this life, or he will remove you out session of it.' Some, it was further of the hazard of temptation. His argued, who had been powerfully will,' she said, " be donel. I have often calied, and yet had afterwards not entreated the Lord to give me a token only slumbered but fallen into grie- of his favour, before I go hence; but vous sins, have been again called he leads me through this dark path and found mercy. David had been of the valley and shadow of death.' called in his youth, yet afterwards. It was replied 10 her, You have no fell into grievous sins; but God had reason to murmur for this, but to bear mercy on him, and granted him the it with patience. You are not worthy grace of repentance and pardon. of any comfort bere; and therefore, Peter was called so be our Lord's, if he think not fit to grant you any disciple, and followed him, but yet in this dark path, his will be done. afterwards denied his Lord; and If he see it expedient for you, he when his Lord looked on him, he will not fail to grant it at lası; but went out and wept bitterly: and we this is the time of your trial, and God see with what compassion our Lord sees it fit to visit you, not only with treated him: she did not so much as bodily affliction, but also with amic upbraid bin with his sin, but said, tion of spirit, for your greater puriSimon, son of Jonas, lovest thou tiçation, and to wean your beart from

the love of the world and of yourself, have I,' she said, to wait for my and to make you more humble, and God, who has waited for me so long, to let you see the vanity of all earthly whose patience and long suffering things, which can give no ease to a have been so great towards me. Yes, wounded spirit, and to make you my God, I will wait: thy' will be thirst the inore earnestly for God, done, not mine!' Besides, it was and feel that nothing cau satisfy you added, you must not despond, without him. Besides, the graces you' though God should not think fit to are to labour after are Faith, Hope grant you any token of his favour (not Assurance), and Charity. So in in this world; for our Lord Jesus, the midst of this darkness, you must to support bis followers under such still hope in God, even against hope, inward darkness and trials, was resign yourself wholly io bim, and pleased, even upon the cross, to ardently love him. They tell of one suffer the eclipse of the light of his of the fathers of the desart, that a Father's countenance, so that this Jevout young man baving commitied inward cross of spirit was more painhimself to his conduct, to be trained ful than the outward one; which up by him in a divine life, the devil, made him cry out, · My God, my transforming himself into an angel God, why hast thou forsaken me?' of light, appeared to the father, and if he who knew no sin yet became bid him be no longer solicitous in sin for iis, underwent such agonies training up that youth, for he was to bring us to God, why should we ordained for eternal torment. The think it strange if God should see fit old man was exceedingly distressed thus to bruise us, that the old man," at this; which the youth observing, self, and corrupt nature may be cruentreated to know the cause of his cified in us. On this, the countess grief, and having learnt it, he said, said, “O my Saviour, was this thy

Olet not this trouble you, good state? O why should I complain, father, for whatever may become of who deserve not the least favour? me hereafter, I will only set myself Did Jesus on the cross cry out, as to love my God the more ardently one forsaken of his God, and shall I while here, and to praise him and complain at wanting the sense of his rejoice in his goodness.' At last, favour? O my God, I resign myself the old man was convinced it was a wholly to thee : thy will be done, delusion, and was comforted. The not mine. Thou canst do nothing countess then said, 'O my good God, amiss. I cast myself down at his I will ever praise thee; I will never feet: if I perish, it shall be there. cease to praise thee; I hope only in Though he slay me, yet will I trust thy mercy, and in the merit of my in him. I will never cease to praise blessed Redeemer; ! resign myself him, never cease to love him.? wholly to thee; 'I will never cease " These conversations passed about to love thee ; ( take the full posses- ten or twelve days before her deparsion of my heart, and let never any lare out of this life; and it pleased creatore enter there any more. You * God to give her from that time a must not, it was again said to her, more quiet resignation to his will, be discouraged if the Lord should and a bumble hope in bis infinite not presently grant your request. mercy, and her heart seemed always Remember the Canaanitish woman. with God and in a divine frame. Jesus at first seemed to take to notice She had a profound view of the of her, and, when prevailed upon to purity of God, combined with a speak to her, he seemed to deny her deep sense of her own vileness; and request. Yet this was but to make these considerations made her someher faith and prayers the 'more ar- times despond, as being wholly unalent. Be not ihen discouraged, but fit for communion with God. But wait for God: blessed are all they she would be again comforted, and that wait for him. O what reason say, " Yet my tongue shall never cease to praise him while I have a that she had not, as she ought to being.' She bad deep views also of have done, clothed the naked, and the approaching judgment, so that fed the hungry, and relieved the when spoken to about worldly miserable; and though it was true affairs, she would say, "What sig- she looked upon herself as entrusted nifies all this to me? I am shortly with all by her husband, yet both of to appear before my Creator and them ought to have considered that Judge'

they were but stewards entrusted “ After having been asked about by God, and she might have relievher spiritual state, or after silented the necessitous without wronging prayer to God, she would sometimes her husband. She entreated, that express great spiritual delight; but whoever thought themselves wrongshe would then check herself, under ed by her, they would let her know an apprehension that she was de- it, and she would make reparation luding herself, and say, that it was according to her power. When any nothing but passion (meaning natu- of the neighbours came into the ral emotion) in her, and not a true room where she was, she would ask settled principle of religion, for she them if she had wronged them in had often had such fits of devotion any thing, and desired to know it, before. She therefore begged ears that she inight repair it. She called nestly that God would settle a solid for some written obligations she had principle of religion in her heart; received of several persons, and can that Christ night dwell in her heart celled them, delivering them up to by faith, and she might be rooted them. and grounded in divine love." - " She was most patient in her “ She never tasted any thing with trouble, had nothing of fretfulness, out begging God's blessing, or have but was calm and easy to all about ing some ejaculatior, as, ‘Most bless- her. She refused no medicine that ed God, I do not deserve this, who was offered to her, however disagreeam an unworthy wretchi; but thou' able to the taste, and although she art good and dost good:'-Lord, give had a strong aversion to all drugs. me thy blessing with it."

She laboured in every thing to deny “ She had a deep sense of her herselt. sins, and was desirous to take shame “ She expressed an ardent love to to herself, and to acknowledge them God, and desired to be wholly his, before all, expressing great indigna and prayed that he might take the lion against herselt on account of antire possession of her heart. She them. What value 1,' said she,' would often say, .( my God, take my reputation?' I will confess my thou the full possession of my soul : sins, for they are great and many. shed abroad ihy love in my heart : I am sorry that any one should have fill it with thy love : let there be no thought me good. I loath and ab- room for the world: let nothing of

hor myself for my sins.' There this world obtain admission, () thou , were two sius which she especially my God, my Lord, my all!' She acknowledged with great grief and often repeated these words, peace iodignation against herself. One on earth, good will to men. ( how was, the mispending of her time, in great is thy good will towards men!' being so much taken up aixut the She said she loved all the world, all cares and concerns of the world; mankind, all her neighbours, and the other in extending her pity, only hated herself." and her hands so little in the relief

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the love of the world and of yourself, have I,' she said, to wait for my and to make you more humble, and God, who has waited for me so long to let you see the vanity of all earthly whose patience and long suffering things, which can give no ease to a have been so great towards me. Yes, wounded spirit, and to make you my God, I will wait: thy will be thirst the more earnestly for God, done, not mine!' Besides, it was and feel that nothing can satisfy you added, you must not despond, without him. Besides, the graces you though God should not think fit to are to labour after are Faith, Hope grant you any token of his favour (not Assurance), and Charity. So in in this world; for our Lord Jesus, the midst of this darkness, you must to support bis followers under-suchu still hope in God, even against hope, inward darkness and trials, was resign yourself wholly io bim, and pleased, even upon the cross, to ardently love him. They tell of one suffer the eclipse of the light of his of the fathers of the desart, that a Father's countenance, so that this devout young man having committed inward cross of spirit was more painhimself to his conduct, to be trained ful than the outward one; which up by him in a divine life, the devil, made him cry out, • My God, my transforming himself into an angel God, why hast thou forsaken me: of light, appeared to the father, and If he who knew no sin yet became bid him be no longer solicitous in sin for 1s, underwent such agonies training up that youth, for he was to bring us to God, why should we ordained for eternal torment. The think it strange if God should see fit old man was exceedingly distressed' thus to bruise us, that the old man, at this; which the youth observing, self, and corrupt nature may be cruentreated to know the cause of his cified in us. On this, the countess grief, and having learnt it, he said, said, “O my Saviour, was this thy

o let' not this trouble you, good state? O why should I complain, father, for whatever may become of who deserve not the least favour. me hereafter, I will only set myself Did Jesus on the cross cry out, as to love my God the more ardently one forsaken of his God, and shall I while here, and to praise him and complain at wanting the sense of his rejoice in his goodness." At last, favour? O my God, I resign myself the old man was convinced it was a wholly to thee: thy will be done, delusion, and was comforted. The not mine. Thou canst do nothing countess then said, 'O my good God, amiss. I cast myself down at his I will ever praise thee; I will never feet: if I perish, it shall be there. cease to praise thee; I hope only in Though he slay me, yet will I trust thy mercy, and in the merit of my in him. I will never cease to praise blessed' Redeemer; ! resign myseif him, never cease to love him. wholly to thee; I will never cease “ These conversations passed about to love thee; ( take the full posses- ten or tivelve days before her deparsion of my heart, and let never anyu lure out of this life; and it pleased creatore enter there any more." YouGod to give her from that time a must not, it was again said to her;' more quiet resignation 10 his will, be discouraged if the Lord should and a bumble hope in bis infinite not presently grant your request. mercy, and her beart seemed always Remember the Canaanitish woman. with God and in a divine frame. Jesus at first seemed w take no notice She had a profound view of the of her, and, when prevailed upon to: půrity of God, combined with a speak to her, he seenied to deny ber deep sense of her own vileness; and Tèquest. Yet this was but to make these considerations made her someher faith and prayers the 'more ar- times despond, as being wholly on: plent. Be not ihen discouraged, but fit for communion with God. But wait for God: blessed are all they she would be again comforted, and that wait for him. O what reason say, Yet my tongue shall never

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room where she was, she would ask settled principle of religion, for she them if she had wronged them in bad often had such fits of devotion any thing, and desired to know it, before. She therefore begged ear- that she inight repair it. She called nestly that God would settle a solid for some written obligations she had principle of religion in her heart; received of several persons, and canthat Christ might dwell in her heart celled them, delivering them up to by faith, and she might be rooted them. and grounded in divine love.”.

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