237 TALE IV. PROCRASTINATION Heaven witness I have been to you a true and humble wife. When I did first impart my love to you, The leisure and the fearful time I know thee not, old man; fall to thy prayers. 2 Henry IV, Act v, Scene 5. Farewell, Thou pure impiety, and impious purity, For thee I'll lock up all the gates of love. Much Ado about Nothing, Act iv, Scene 1. LOVE will expire, the gay, the happy dream Will turn to scorn, indiff'rence, or esteem: Some favour'd pairs, in this exchange, are bless'd, Nor sigh for raptures in a state of rest; Others, ill match'd, with minds unpair'd, repent At once the deed, and know no more content; The sweet disturber of unenvied rest : Rupert some comfort in his station saw, And thus the pair, with expectations vain, Beheld the seasons change and change again : Meantime the nymph her tender tales perused, Where cruel aunts impatient girls refused; While hers, though teasing, boasted to be kind, And she, resenting, to be all resign'd. The dame was sick, and when the youth applied For her consent, she groan'd, and cough'd, and cried : Talk'd of departing, and again her breath Drew hard, and cough'd, and talk'd again of death: Here you may live, my Dinah! here the boy Dinah had still some duty to attend ; That nothing seem'd exclusively their own; At length a prospect open'd-but, alas ! Long time must yet, before the union, pass; Rupert was call'd in other clime, t' increase Another's wealth, and toil for future peace; Loth were the lovers; but the aunt declared 'Twas fortune's call, and they must be prepared; 'You now are young, and for this brief delay, And Dinah's care, what I bequeath will pay; All will be yours; nay, love, suppress that sigh; The kind must suffer, and the best must die: Then came the cough, and strong the signs it gave Of holding long contention with the grave. The view more clouded, that was never fair, When the sage widow Dinah's grief descried, She wonder'd much why one so happy sigh'd: Then bade her see how her poor aunt sustain'd The ills of life, nor murmur'd nor complain'd. To vary pleasures, from the lady's chest Were drawn the pearly string and tabby vest; Beads, jewels, laces, all their value shown, With the kind notice- They will be your own.' This hope, these comforts cherish'd day by day, To Dinah's bosom made a gradual way; Or whether av'rice, like the poison-tree,* grew And for the verses she was wont to send, Short was her prose, and she was Rupert's friend. Seldom she wrote, and then the widow's cough, And constant call, excused her breaking off; Like honest men, they said their hopes were past; Then came a priest-'tis comfort to reflect, To think what load of troubles she possess'd: In Dinah's soul,-she loved the hoards to Her love of hoarding, and her dread of waste. Sometimes the past would on her mind view; With lively joy those comforts she survey'd, And love grew languid in the careful maid. Now the grave niece partook the widow's cares, Look'd to the great and ruled the small affairs; Saw clean'd the plate, arranged the china show, And felt her passion for a shilling grow: By placing tokens of her wealth in sight; This passion grew, and gain'd at length such sway, That other passions shrank to make it way; Romantic notions now the heart forsook, She read but seldom, and she changed her book; * Allusion is here made, not to the well-known species of sumach, called the poison oak, or toxicodendron, but to the upas, or poison-tree of Java: whether it be real or imaginary, this is no proper place for inquiry. intrude, And then a conflict full of care ensued ; The thoughts of Rupert on her mind would press, His worth she knew, but doubted his success; Willing to live, but more to live at ease: Month after month was pass'd, and all were spent In quiet comfort and in rich content: Miseries there were, and woes the world around, But these had not her pleasant dwelling found; She knew that mothers grieved, and widows Where mild good sense in placid looks were Her mother loved, but was not used to grant shown, And felt in every bosom but her own. Among their chosen friends a favour'd few, They own'd she would adorn the loftiest race. And, anxious for her charge, had view'd unseen Favours so freely as her gentle aunt.- She doubted much if one in earnest woo'd At length, with many a cold expression mix'd, With many a sneer on girls so fondly fix'd, There came a promise-should they not repent, But take with grateful minds the portion meant, And wait the sister's day-the mother might consent. And here, might pitying hope o'er truth prevail, Or love o'er fortune, we would end our tale : For who more bless'd than youthful pair removed The cautious life that keeps the conscience From fear of want-by mutual friends clean : In all she found him all she wish'd to find, And spoke the fears and hopes that lovers feel; When too the prudent aunt herself confess'd, The household cares, the soft and lasting ties approved Short time to wait, and in that time to live With all the pleasures hope and fancy give; Their equal passion raised on just esteem, When reason sanctions all that love can dream? Yes! reason sanctions what stern fate denies : The early prospect in the glory dies, hand In the high marriage by the mother plann'd: Who grieved indeed, but found a vast relief In a cold heart, that ever warr'd with grief. Lucy was present when her sister died, Heiress to duties that she ill supplied: There were no mutual feelings, sister arts, No kindred taste, nor intercourse of hearts When in the mirror play'd the matron's smile, The maiden's thoughts were trav'lling all the while; And when desired to speak, she sigh'd to find To have indulged these forward hopes so long; Her pause offended; Envy made her blind: name, And with superior rank, superior offers claim: Alarm'd was Lucy, was in tears- A fool! True in herself, confiding in his truth; But own'd her mother's change: the haughty dame Pour'd strong contempt upon the youthful flame; She firmly vow'd her purpose to pursue, Judged her own cause, and bade the youth adieu ! The lover begg'd, insisted, urged his pain His brother wrote to threaten and complain, Her sister reasoning proved the promise made, Lucy appealing to a parent pray'd; But all opposed th' event that she design'd, And all in vain-she never changed her mind; But coldly answer'd in her wonted way, That she would rule, and Lucy must obey.' With peevish fear, she saw her health decline, And cried, 'Oh! monstrous, for a man to pine; But if your foolish heart must yield to love, Let him possess it whom I now approve; This is my pleasure: '-Still the rector came With larger offers and with bolder claim; But the stern lady would attend no moreShe frown'd, and rudely pointed to the door; Whate'er he wrote, he saw unread return'd, And he, indignant, the dishonour spurn'd; Nay, fix'd suspicion where he might confide, And sacrificed his passion to his pride. Lucy, meantime, though threaten'd and distress'd, Against her marriage made a strong protest: All was domestic war: the aunt rebell'd Of angry fate, it preys upon the form; Thursday-was married :-take the paper, sweet, And read the conduct of your reverend cheat; See with what pomp of coaches, in what crowd The creature married-of his falsehood proud! False, did I say ?—at least no whining fool; And thus will hopeless passions ever cool : But shall his bride your single state reproach? No! give him crowd for crowd, and coach for coach. Oh! you retire; reflect then, gentle miss, And gain some spirit in a cause like this.' Some spirit Lucy gain'd; a steady soul, Defying all persuasion, all control: In vain reproach, derision, threats were tried; Fix'd in her purpose, perfect in her part, Not strange before, for in the days of love, Joy, hope, and pleasure, she had thoughts above; Pious when most of worldly prospects fond, When they best pleased her she could look When his frank air, and his unstudied pace, Are seen with her soft manner, air, and grace, And his plain artless look with her sharp meaning face; It might some wonder in a stranger move, How these together could have talk'd of love. Behold them now!-see there a tradesman stands, 'Had I,' he thinks, 'been wealthier of the two, Would she have found me so unkind, untrue? Or knows not man when poor, what man when rich will do ? Yes, yes! I feel that I had faithful proved, And should have soothed and raised her, bless'd and loved.' But Dinah moves-she had observed before And humbly hearkens to some fresh com- The pensive Rupert at an humble door : mands; Some thoughts of pity raised by his distress, He moves to speak, she interrupts him- Some feeling touch of ancient tenderness; Stay,' Her air expresses-'Hark! to what I say: Religion, duty urged the maid to speak What were the movements of that subtle Each eye should see her, and each heart It were all one, That I should love a bright particular star, And think to wed it; he so above me : In his bright radiance and collateral light Must I be comforted, not in his sphere. All's Well that Ends Well, Act 1, Scene 1. Poor wretches, that depend On greatness' favour, dream as I have done, Wake and find nothing. Cymbeline, Act v, Scene 4. And since.. Th' affliction of my mind amends, with which I fear a madness held me. The Tempest, Act v, Scene 1. A BOROUGH-BAILIFF, who to law was train'd, A wife and sons in decent state maintain'd; He had his way in life's rough ocean steer'd, And many a rock and coast of danger clear'd: He saw where others fail'd, and care had he Others in him should not such failings see; His sons in various busy states were placed, And all began the sweets of gain to taste, Save John, the younger; who, of sprightly parts, Felt not a love for money-making arts: In childhood feeble, he, for country air, Of peevish ghosts who came at dark mid Of lovers' sufferings and of ladies' wrongs; night, For breach of promise, guilty men to fright; Love, marriage, murder, were the themes, with these, All that on idle, ardent spirits seize ; Robbers at land and pirates on the main, Enchanters foil'd, spells broken, giants slain; Legends of love, with tales of halls and bowers, Choice of rare songs, and garlands of choice flowers, And all the hungry mind without a choice devours. From village-children kept apart by pride, With such enjoyments, and without a guide, Inspired by feelings all such works infused, John snatch'd a pen, and wrote as he pe rused: With the like fancy he could make his knight Slay half an host and put the rest to flight; |