He might have left you something with his prayers, And lent some colour for these lofty airs. In tears! my love! Oh, then my soften'd heart Cannot resist we never more will part; I need your friendship-I will be your friend, And thus determined, to my will attend.' Jesse went forth, but with determined soul To fly such love, to break from such control; 'I hear enough,' the trembling damsel cried; 'Flight be my care, and Providence my guide: Ere yet a prisoner, I escape will make; Will, thus display'd, th' insidious arts forsake, And, as the rattle sounds, will fly the fatal snake.' Spurn'd by its scoundrel father, and ill fed By surly rustics with the parish-bread !— Relent you not ?-speak-yet I can forgive; Still live with me '-' With you,' said Jesse, ' live? No! I would first endure what you describe, Rather than breathe with your detested tribe; Who long have feign'd, till now their very hearts Are firmly fix'd in their accursed parts; Who all profess esteem, and feel disdain, And all, with justice, of deceit complain; Whom I could pity, but that, while I stay, My terror drives all kinder thoughts away; Grateful for this, that when I think of you, I little fear what poverty can do.' The angry matron her attendant Jane Summon'd in haste to soothe the fierce disdain: 'A vile detested wretch!' the lady cried, 'Yet shall she be, by many an effort, tried, And, clogg'd with debt and fear, against her will abide; And once secured, she never shall depart Till I have proved the firmness of her heart; Then when she dares not, would not, cannot go, I'll make her feel what 'tis to use me so.' The pensive Colin in his garden stray'd, But felt not then the beauties it display'd; There many a pleasant object met his view, A rising wood of oaks behind it grew; A stream ran by it, and the village-green And public road were from the gardens seen; Save where the pine and larch the bound'ry made, And on the rose-beds threw a softening shade. The mother sat beside the garden-door, Dress'd as in times ere she and hers were poor; The broad-laced cap was known in ancient days, When madam's dress compell'd the village praise; And still she look'd as in the times of old, Ere his last farm the erring husband sold ; While yet the mansion stood in decent state, And paupers waited at the well-known gate. 'Alas! my son!' the mother cried, ‘and why There is no mother, Colin, no not one, Shielded by thee, my want becomes my Once more the movement of the horses' feet Makes the fond heart with strong emotion beat; wealth And soothed by Colin, sickness smiles at health; The old men love thee, they repeat thy praise, And say, like thee were youth in earlier days; While every village-maiden cries," How gay, How smart, how brave, how good is Colin Grey!" 'Yet art thou sad; alas! my son, I know Thy heart is wounded, and the cure is slow; Fain would I think that Jesse still may come To share the comforts of our rustic home: She surely loved thee; I have seen the maid, When thou hast kindly brought the vicar aid When thou hast eased his bosom of its pain, Silent, but striving for a grateful smile; A grateful pity would have ruled her breast, And my distresses would have made me blest. 'But she is gone, and ever has in view Grandeur and taste-and what will then ensue? Surprise and then delight in scenes so fair and new; For many a day, perhaps for many a week, Home will have charms, and to her bosom speak; But thoughtless ease, and affluence, and pride, Seen day by day, will draw her heart aside: And she at length, though gentle and sincere, Will think no more of our enjoyments here.' Sighing he spake-but hark! he hears th' approach Of rattling wheels! and lo! the eveningcoach; Faint were his hopes, but ever had the sight Had he not offer'd, to have Jesse come! Sure of a welcome for the vicar's sake: No wishes to depart she felt, or feign'd; Yet long in doubt she stood, and then perforce remain'd. Here was a lover fond, a friend sincere ; Here was content and joy, for she was here: In the mild evening, in the scene around, The maid, now free, peculiar beauties found; Blended with village-tones, the evening-gale Gave the sweet night-bird's warblings to the TALE XIV. THE STRUGGLES OF CONSCIENCE I am a villain; yet I lie, I am not; flatter. My Conscience hath a thousand several counsel. Merchant of Venice, Act ii, Scene 2. Thou hast it now... and I fear Thou play'dst most foully for't. Macbeth, Act iii, Scene 1. Canst thou not minister to a mind diseased, All in an attic-room were wont to meet, Follow'd the light his worthy uncle gave; For though the youth was call'd a prudent lad, Cleanse the stuff'd bosom of that perilous stuff Which weighs upon the heart? . Soft! I did but dreamOh! coward Conscience, how dost thou afflict me! Richard III, Act v, Scene 3. A SERIOUS toyman in the city dwelt, Papist and quaker if we set aside, He had the road of every traveller tried; To look more closely to the things within ; Such were his thoughts, when Conscience To hold close converse with th' awaken'd He man: from that time reserved and cautious And for his duties felt obedience due; Like one determined what was ill t' oppose, And he, the truth obtain'd, without the toil, What wrong t' accuse, what secret to disclose: might share. In fact, young Fulham, though he little read, For few disciples paid the preacher's toil; To drag forth every latent act to light, The uncle died, and when the nephew read Yet felt aspiring pleasure at the sight, And for increase, ncreasing appetite: Desire of profit, idle habits check'd, (For Fulham's virtue was to be correct); He and his Conscience had their compact made 'Urge me with truth, and you will soon persuade; But not,' he cried, for mere ideal things Trifles may wake me, but they never wound; The tempting ill that gains access to me: The dangerous good, or give it to the poor; Repose for them my growing wealth shall buy Or build-who knows?-an hospital like Guy?— Yet why such means to soothe the smart within, While firmly purposed to renounce the sin ? ' Thus our young Trader and his Conscience dwelt In mutual love, and great the joy they felt; Thus was he fix'd to walk the worthy way, Where generous beaux might gentle damsels Wish for your checks and your reproofs-but please, And travellers call who cross the land or seas, Here Conscience rested, she was pleased to find No less an active than an honest mind; But when he named his price, and when he swore, His Conscience check'd him, that he ask'd no more, When half he sought had been a large increase Offence there was-But, who offended less? While he was acting (he would call it) well; He bought as others buy, he sold as others sell: There was no fraud, and he demanded cause Why he was troubled, when he kept the laws?' 'My laws?' said Conscience: 'What,' Oral or written, human or divine? 6 'Reflect,' said Conscience, ' 'twas your own desire That I should warn you-does the compact tire ? Repent you this? then bid me not advise, What serious conflicts will on war attend.' 'Nay, but,' at length the thoughtful man replied, 'I say not that; I wish you for my guide; then Be like a Conscience of my fellow-men; Worthy I mean, and men of good report, And not the wretches who with Conscience sport: There's Bice, my friend, who passes off his grease Of pigs for bears', in pots a crown apiece; His Conscience never checks him when he swears The fat he sells is honest fat of bears; Now why should you and I be over-nice; Here ended the dispute; but yet 'twas plain The parties both expected strife again : Their friendship cool'd, he look'd about and Report had told, and he could feel it true, That most unfairly dealt the trusted few; No partners would they in their office take, Nor clear accounts at annual meetings make; Aloud our hero in the vestry spoke Of hidden deeds, and vow'd to draw the cloak; It was the poor man's cause, and he for one Was quite determined to see justice done: His foes affected laughter, then disdain, They too were loud and threat'ning, but in vain ; The pauper's friend, their foe, arose and spoke again : Fiercely he cried, 'Your garbled statements show That you determine we shall nothing know; |