Better to sink beneath the shock.
Than moulder piecemeal on the rock!

· Father! thy days have pass'd in peace,

'Mid counted beads, and countless prayer ; To bid the sins of others cease,

Thyself without a crime or care, Save transient ills that all must bear, Has been thy lot from youth to age ; And thou wilt bless thee from the rage Of passions fierce and uncontrollid, Such as thy penitents unfold, Whose secret sins and sorrows rest Within thy pure and pitying breast. My days, though few, have pass'd below In much of joy, but more of woe ; Yet still in hours of love or strife, I've 'scaped the weariness of life : Now leagued with friends, now girt by foes, I loathed the languor of repose. Now nothing left to love or hate, No more with hope or pride elate, I'd rather be the thing that crawls Most noxious o'er a dungeon's walls, Than pass my dull, unvarying days, Condemn'd to meditate and gaze. Yet, lurks a wish within

my breast For rest - but not to feel 't is rest. Soon shall my fate that wish fulfil ;

And I shall sleep without the dream
Of what I was, and would be still,
Dark as to thee


may seem :
My memory now is but the tomb
Of joys long dead; my hope, their doom :
Though better to have died with those
Than bear a life of lingering woes.
My spirits shrunk not to sustain
The searching throes of ceaseless pain;
Nor sought the self-accorded grave
Of ancient fool and modern knave:
Yet death I have not fear'd to meet;
And in the field it had been sweet,
Had danger woo'd me on to move
The slave of glory, not of love.

[ocr errors]

I've braved it—not for honour's boast;
I smile at laurels won or lost;
To such let others carve their way,
For high renown, or hireling pay:
But place again before my eyes
Aught that I deem a worthy prize,
The maid I love, the man I hate ;
And I will hunt the steps of fate,
To save or slay, as these require,
Through rending steel, and rolling fire :
Nor need'st thou doubt this speech from ono
Who would but do what he hath done.
Death is but what the haughty brave,
The weak must bear, the wretch must crave;
Then let Life go to him who gave :
I have not quail'd to danger's brow
When high and happy — need I now ?



• I loved her, Friar! nay, adored

But these are words that all can use -
I proved it more in deed than word;
There's blood upon that dinted sword,

A stain its steel can never lose :
'Twas shed for her, who died for me,

It warm'd the heart of one abhorr'd:
Nay, start not — no — nor bend thy knee,

Nor midst my sins such act record ;
Thou wilt absolve me from the deed,
For he was hostile to thy creed !
The very name of Nazarene
Was wormwood to his Paynim spleen.
Ungrateful fool! since but for brands
Weil wielded in some hardy hands,
And wounds by Galileans given,

The surest pass to Turkish heaven,
For him his Houris still might wait
Impatient at the Prophet's gate.

I loved her — love will find its way + Through paths where wolves would fear to proy:

And if it dares enough, 't were hard
If passion met not some reward
No matter how, or where, or why,
I did not vainly seek, nor sigh :
Yet sometimes, with remorse, in vain
I wish she had not loved again.

[ocr errors]

She died - I dare not tell thee how ;
But look 't is written on my

There read of Cain the curse and crime,
In characters unworn by time':
Still, ere thou dost condemn me, pause ;
Not mine the act, though I the cause.
Yet did he but what I had done
Had she been false to more than one.
Faithless to him, he gave the blow;
But true to me, I laid him low :
Howe'er deserved her doom might be,
Her treachery was truth to me ;
To me she gave her heart, that all
Which tyranny can ne'er enthral ;
And I, alas ! too late to save !
Yet all I then could give, I gave,
'Twas some relief, our foe a grave.
His death sits lightly; but her fate
Has made me what thou well may'st hate.

His doom was seald — he knew it well,
Warn’d by the voice of stern Taheer,
Deep in whose darkly boding ear (")
The death-shot peal'd of murder near,

As filed the troop to where they fell ! (1). This superstition of a second hearing (for I never met with downright secondsight in the East) fell once under my own observation. On my third journey to Cape Colonna, early in 1811, as we passed through the dofile that leads from the hamlet between Keratia and Colonna,'I observed Dervish Tahiri riding rather out of the path, and leaning his head upon his hand, as if in pain. I rode up and enquired. " We are

peril,” he answered. " What peril? we are not now in Albania, nor in the passes to Ephesus, Messalunghi, or Lepanto; there are plenty of us, well armed, and the Choriates have not courage to be thieves.”_" True, Affendi, but nevertheless, the shot is ringing in my ears.”—". The shot! not a tophaike has been fired this morning.' I hear it notwithstanding - Bom-Bom

-as plainly as I hear your voice. .“ Psha !" -"As you please, Affendi; if it is written, so will it be." - I left this quick.eared predestinarian, and rode up io Basili, his Chris. tian compatriot, whose ears, though not at all prophetic, by no means relished the intelligence. We all arrived at Colonna, remained some hours, and returned leisurely, saying a variety of brilliant things, in more languages than spoiled the building of Babel, upon the mistaken seer; Romaic, Arnaout, Turkish, Italian, and English were all exercised, in various conceits, upon the unfortunate Mussulman. While wo were contemplating the beautiful prospect, Dervish was occupied about the columns. I thought he was deranged into an antiquarian, and asked him if he had become a “ Palao-castro man?" No,” said he, but these pillars will be useful in making a stand;" and added other remarks, which at least evinced his own belief in his troublesomo faculty of forehearing. On our return to Athens, we heard from Leoné (a prisoner set ashore some days after) of the intended attack of the Mainoles,

mentioned, with the cause of its not taking place, in the notes to Childe Harold, Canto 20. was at some pains to question the man, and he described the dresses, arms, and marks of the horses of our party so accurately, that, with other circumstances, we could not doubt of his having been in " villainous company,". and ourselves in a bad neighbourhood. Dervish became a soothsayer for life, and I dare say is now hearing more musketry than ever will be fired, to the great refreshment of the Arnaouts of Berat, and his native mountains.--I shall mention one trait more of this sin

He died tou in the battle broil,
A time that heeds nor pain nor toil ;
One cry to Mahomet for aid,
One prayer to Alla all he made :
He knew and cross'd me in the fray –
I gazed upon him where he lay
And watch'd his spirit ebb away :
Though pierc'd like pard by hunters' steel,
He felt not half that now I feel.
I search'd, but vainly search'd, to find
The workings of a wounded mind;
Each feature of that sullen corse
Betray'd his rage, but no remorse.
Oh, what had Vengeance given to trace
Despair upon his dying face!
The late repentance of that hour,
When Penitence hath lost her power
To tear one terror from the grave,
And will not soothe, and cannot save.


« The cold in clime are cold in blood,

Their love can scarce deserve the name ;
But mine was like the lava flood

That boils in Ætna's breast of flame.
I cannot prate in puling strain
Of ladye-love, and beauty's chain :
If changing cheek, and scorching vein,
Lips taught to writhe, but not complain,
If bursting heart, and madd’ning brain,
And daring deed, and vengeful steel,
And all that I have felt, and feel,
Betoken love - that love was mine,
And shown by many a bitter sign.
'Tis true, I could not whine nor sigh,
I knew but to obtain or die.
I die — but first I have possess'd,
And come what may, I have been blest.

gular raco. In March, 1811, a remarkably stout and active Arnaout camo (I believe the 50th on the same errand) to offer himself as an attendant, which was declined : "Well, Atfendi,” quoth he, may you live ! - you would have found me useful. I shall leave the town for the hills to-morrow, in the winter I return, perhaps you will then receivo me."-Dervish, who was present, remarked, as a thing of course, and of no consoquence, " in tho moan time ho will join tho Klophtos " (robbers), which was true to the letter. If not cut off, they como down in the winter, and pass it unmolested in somo lown, where they are often as well known as their exploits.


[ocr errors]

Shall I the doom I sought upbraid ?
No reft of all, yet undismay'd
But for the thought of Leila slain,
Give me the pleasure with the pain,
So would I live and love again.
I grieve, but not, my holy guide!
For him who dies, but her who died :
She sleeps beneath the wandering wave -
Ah! had she but an earthly grave,
This breaking heart and throbbing head
Should seek and share her narrow bed.
She was a form of life and light,
That, seen, became a part of sight; .
And rose, where'er I turned mine eye,

The Morning stur of Memory!
“ Yes, Love indeed is light from heaven ;

A spark of that immortal fire
With angels shared, by Alla given,

To life from earth our low desire.
Devotion wafts the mind above,
But Heaven itself descends in love ;
A feeling from the Godhead caught,
To wean from self each sordid thought;
A Ray of him who form’d the whole ;
A Glory circling round the soul !
I grant my love imperfect, all
That mortals by the name miscall;
Then deem it evil, what thou wilt ;

hers was not guilt !
She was my life's unerring light:
That quench'd, what beam shall break my night?
Oh! would it shone to lead me still,
Although to death or deadliest ill!
Why marvel ye, if they who lose

This present joy, this future hope,

No more with sorrow meekly cope ;
In phrensy then their fate accuse :
In madness do those fearful deeds

That seem to add but guilt to woe ?
dlas! the breast that inly bleeds

Hath nought to dread from outward blow :
Who falls from all he knows of bliss,
Cares little into what abyss.
Fierce as the gloomy vulture's now

To thee, old man, my deeds appear :

oh say,

« ForrigeFortsett »